How far would you go?

Sacrifice.

It's been on mind for a few months now, and still I have no answer.

How much am I willing to sacrifice?

Everything, and let things go on as they are right now?

Or nothing, and get what I actually want out of my life?

2.26.09

3 years and 364 day ago, a boy with Nintendo shoelaces put his head in my lap.

4 years ago he called and asked me a question.

For all of you who know me, you know the rest.

:)

"Tell me are you feeling lost, have you crossed
In the places that you never knew to get through
Tell me are you gonna cry all night
Tell me the truth, and I’ll tell you the truth
If you gamble everything for love
You gonna be alright, alright

Make a list of things you need, leave it empty
Except for number one, write “love”, gamble everything 
Keep it under lock and key
If you wanna, you can gamble everything for love"

                                                    -Gamble Everything For Love, Ben Lee

Give yourself a gold star.

My accomplishment for the day?

I just ran 3.75 miles.

And it feels great.

I can't wait for it to be nice enough to run outside.

And I can't wait to live in Muncie, where I can run 

on the Cardinal Greenway, in the park or up and down McKinnley.

Good times are only 76 days away.

We're gonna watch it burn, baby.

I'm making my plan, and this time I'm going to stick to it.

The time is right.  No more excuses.

I have a permanant reminder of my goal that is going to motivate me to make the change.

After all, I got it for a reason.

...............wish me luck.

Billy Joel is a genius.

They say that these are not the best of times
But they're the only times I've ever known
And I believe there is a time for meditation
In cathedrals of our own
Now I have seen that sad surrender in my lovers' eyes
I can only stand apart and sympathize
For we are always what our situations hand us
It's either sadness or euphoria

And so we'll argue and we'll compromise
And realize that nothing's ever changed
For all our mutual experience
Our separate conclusions are the same
Now we are forced to recognize our inhumanity
A reason coexists with our insanity
And so we choose between reality and madness
It's either sadness or euphoria

How thoughtlessly we dissipate our energies
Perhaps we don't fulfill each other's fantasies
So we stand upon the ledges of our lives
With our respective similarities
It's either sadness or euphoria

Don't dwell.

.....it will never happen.

bitches, i hope you know

Bitches and ho's.

Bitches get money.

Both were taken, so I get:

...........Bitches be thuggin'.